Double Tuesday: Part 2

I almost psyched myself out of an audition! But I didn't and I have an audition on Saturday. I need to get my voice in shape for this audition. It is in me. I really want this so I need to get myself in shape--mind/body shape! Milton talks about the snake (subconscious counterproductive thoughts) that stop us for going for what we want. I'm just going to tell the snake to SHUTTHEFUCKUP I'm working here! I don't have time for you!

DKT
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Double Tuesday: Part 1

I didn't write anything yesterday.  I had great intentions but I let the day slip by me.  So today I'll write two.  Yesterday I had an awesome repeat scene in class.  The scene went well and the notes during the critique were really sinking in.  Which for me is more of a win than the actual scene.  I felt present and willing/ready to take any redirection.  I definitely have to start going back and listening to my critiques. I also completed an exercise in Dreams Into Action.  It felt good.  Being productive always feels good.  I read a scene over that I will be performing in class next month.  And I have no idea what the hell is really going on in that scene.  So I am excited to get in there and figure it out.  Burn This is a cool play but I'm finding it difficult to connect to the language while just reading it.  I also started training my successor as Stage Manager of the night class.  I am ready to make this change and see where that leads.  That's all for now.  Part 2 a little later.

DKT

Where Do I Go From Here?

So I found some casting notices on Backstage East and they got me really excited. Two movies looking for African American talent; and I believe fresh new talent. Which is me!

The notices weren't in the audition section so there weren't any character BDs or anything. So I reached out to my Admin group and they offered a little help but I'm still at a standstill.

The trouble I am having these days is what is the next step. I want to help myself be known. I am excited about being on television and that leading me to a run on Broadway! But how do I make that happen? Who do I talk to? What professional help do I need? I know I can't do it alone but time is ticking and I want to maximize my chances.

I get excited and then I get unfocused and impatient. I just need to stick to a coarse of action and only deviate when it is NOT serving me.

I can do this. I can.

DKT
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Can I Be More Accountable?!

I can text and email my postings so now I really don't have an excuse to not post daily.

DKT
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Inspired

I haven't thought about this blog in years and this morning I said, "why don't you write?" And I couldn't think of any reason....well excuse...to not. So here I am. I've decided to not change my Blog headline because this is still about "Firsts". I am not in MN anymore but in LA. West Hollywood to be exact. I won't get into my journey over the past couple of years, but I am sure those experiences will be constructively re-lived as I begin this journey again.

So why am I writing again? I feel inspired. So many thoughts, inspirational citations and nuggets of information are swirling through my mind but there are two that stick out. First is something my new/old/re-newed hip-hop teacher said to me a few weeks ago. She said that dance and fitness is a mind-body effort. And the mind is the key ingredient. You have to get it in your head that this (whatever this is for you) is what you want to do. I interrupted that as getting over your personal bullshit. Getting through past trials. And just getting it into your head that you CAN and WILL do this. Instead of psyching yourself out; build yourself up and just do it!

My 2nd bit of inspiration came from reading my daily devotions this morning. Iylana Vanzant's Until Today! is fantastic and highly recommended. Today's was about freeing myself to live freely. Allowing myself to go back to my youth when I had no inhibitions and was comfortable in my thoughts and dreams. I began to wonder where my imagination had gone? I have been living so long in this adult driven world where I am the sole decision maker, bills pile up, a crisis is just a phone call away and all that I am living for has taken the backseat. Somewhere in my mind I've convinced myself that many of my dreams are out of my reach. I feel the clock ticking and I feel that I'm running out of time. So instead of hitting the grindstone and getting my ass in gear; I do the bare minimum. Wow....I've never really come to terms with that until now. The responsibility falls on me and I choose to NOT be that guy anymore. I don't know who that guy is. I won't allow myself to get in my way anymore. So this blog will hold me accountable. I am committing myself to post daily until the end of the year. The focus will be on my career. I'm excited.

listening to: Come Too Far - Victory Cathedral Choir

Much Love,

DKT