Installment Cinque

Chronciles of a City Chap: Putting Together The Pieces

It has been quite sometimes since I have officially updated everyone and even more time since I have taken a deliberate reflection on my life. WARNING: This stream of consciousness could quite possibly lack any rhyme or reason.

Last I remember I was in rehearsal for the Holiday Play at CLIMB, "The Elves & The Shoemaker". I was the shoemaker and I had a great time. We had the CUTEST kids come and see the show and since it was an interactive play we had more fun than we could expect. I experienced a revelation after the 1st performance. I realized that we as a people have lost touch with our ability to trust who we are in spirit. I realized this as the kids without fear, reservation or judgment reached out to embrace us. This young boy after the show just walked right over to me, arms expanded, eyes innocent---and he hugged me. Then another boy and then a darling little girl with rosy cheeks. And my heart melted. I found in those few seconds a piece of myself who I had lost in my adult life. I have been getting so caught up in working: working at work, working to survive, working to grow, working to understand, working to relax, working to change, working to stay genuine....and the list is infinite. The point is I want to go back to DOING then REVIEWING.

I am also grateful for the artist growth that I am experiencing here, nevertheless I am left longing for more. I am still finding something new about my character in every performance. I am still amazed by how receptive the students are to us. This is a heavy topic and can be invading, uncomfortable and horrifying. People have asked is the show too much? Or are you Meth'd out? And I simply say: No. If I have caused 1 student to think more critically about the choices he or she makes then I have done my job.

I have also started to wonder what happens next? Where do I go when I am done with CLIMB? What work will I do? Where will I live? What do I want out of my life emotionally? financially? artistically? The only answer I have composed is -- I want the best. Now that I have figured that out....what do I do?! That question was rhetorical in nature but I must become proactive in finding an answer.

As the Holidays keep coming I find myself missing my friends and family. As close as I have gotten to a few people here; that is nothing in comparison to what I have with all of you. I am blessed for having the opportunity to built the relationships that I am builting here but I long for spending some time with people who already know me. I want to talk about nothing but feel so satisfied when we say goodbye. I want us to look at each other and find a way to talk for hours. I need some of that right now. I need to be around the people I love and the folks who love me. I am feeling a bit homesick. Damn you all for loving me so well.

Passionately Yours ~ Keone The Kid